My Rant Fest!

One of my good friends have been telling me that I'm a man hater! So it got me thinking... The circumstances that brought it about is unusual. As a friend I will always try to be on your side and listen to your feelings. I don't like it when a man uses and abuses my friend. He is lazy, selfish, and a complete scum of the earth. I just can't do somersaults when he calls her during the day. It doesn't seem to warrant a pat on the back. One of her other friends told her that she took it as he is trying!!! By calling her without her calling him!!! When she has told him a million times that she wants him to call her and they have been together 3 years. I understand I'm exagerating the times she has asked him, because she doesn't like to "bug" him (she hates to nag). I guess I'm a nagger. Asshole used to call me 20 times a day when we were together. I realize that he loved me as much as he was capable of, but it still wasn't enough. Calling isn't a sign of love. He used to talk to me about everything and I was the first person he turned to in good and bad times. He still did it the beginning of this year and we haven't been together for 3 years. That doesn't change the fact that he wasn't enough. The fact that her weasel totally disregarded her well being by going off hunting instead of making a room livable for her. The fact he still couldn't do it this weekend, because he is depressed. I know depression. You might not want to do anything, but essential things still have to do be done. Maybe not the things that you usually want to do that is a "fun" activity. You don't just blow off work and go do pointless things, because of depression. He just uses it as a sheild and he is now using suicide to manipulate her. I've been suicidal recently. We think about it, but we don't actually share that with other people. When you are suicidal you are in a black void and you just do it if you are going to do it. I realize that I haven't had a lot of tolerance for men on the whole. I'm not willing to be a doormat and I'm not willing to "SETTLE" not anymore. I realize that I'm not perfect and I have lots of issues. I'm human. I do know that I'm a bright, loving, and attractive individual that have lots to give and deserves to receive more than crumbs. A phone call is nice, but it shouldn't make her overlook all of his faults. He is a waste of the oxygen he is breathing. He takes her money and sucks her dry of everything even her pride. One of these days he is going to suck her of everything and he won't be there. I will as her friend, but I just can't get excited when he calls her...