Helen of Troy

On my birthday I was bored out of my mind, because I was down in bed with a damn cold. What else is there to do other than surfing the net? I found out that I have the same birth day with her and got me thinking... I really don't want to cripple/destroy an empire, but to be loved that much. I wish! It always seem to be me that loves more than my mate. I know I have a lot of love to give, but a big part of me is terrified to open my heart to love again. Last year it kind of snuck up on me. Complete surprise and it didn't end well. Which is a perfect example. Even though we loved each other more than I have loved or been loved before. We couldn't let ourselves be together, because it would have destroyed so many lives... So I guess it isn't possible for me to be her...