Happy Thanksgiving!

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Sleep is wonderful...

I have to admit that sleeping is valuable equity in my happiness quota. Satin has been a very sick doggy since Thursday and I thought it was because she had a UTI. I bought some cranberry pills and it cracked me up that I didn't have to scam her to eat it. She is such a glutten that she eats them like treats. Every 1 to 2 hours she had to go outside to go potty and it was seriously making me go batty! I need at least 8 hours or I can't function properly. Yay! Last night she slept the night through like normal. I'm a very happy girl!

7 Random things about me...

I got tagged from a very good friend. So Daisy this is for you. What we will do in the name of friendship.

1) I'm Korean decent and was born in Korea. Adopted at 4 and have lived in Utah ever since. So although I look Asian I feel Causcasian which is pretty messed up. LOL. I have a recurring dream since I was little about being in a tree and watching my "biological father" being shot by soldiers.

2) I'm addicted to and in love with Grey's Anatomy and Brothers and Sisters like I was to Friends. TV isn't my thing, but I won't miss those two shows.

3) On the whole I am a friendly and sweet person, but I get annoyed easily. Which means that I have no patience for stupid and clueless people even though I'm clueless a lot. It is just a double standard on my part. Plus I think I'm adorable when I'm clueless.

4) I'm a nerd. I am facinated by stupid facts that most people would care less about. I alway feel the need to investigate and over think things to the point that it makes me batty.

5) I love to travel and if I was independently wealthy I would explore the world.

6) I'm a baker! I'm a pretty good cook, but I don't love to do it as much as I like baking things.

7) I love my Nintendo DS! It is great to have when you are in line and need something to do.

What I miss the most about being in a relationship...

Morning sex! Sex is great on the whole, but I find morning sex wornderful and it is only possible when you are in a relationship. Anyone that knows me knows that I'm horrible about getting up in the mornings, but having sex in the mornings is a great way to wake up and get your blood pumping. Who ever my next boyfriend ends up being will be a very lucky guy indeed. I don't think I will let him away from my bed for a week... It has been a while and I guess it could be my fault. I'm not really good at the one night stand thing. Can't have sex with just anybody not that I haven't had sex on the first date, because I have and it was great. Just doesn't seem to work out when it happens that way. It seems to escrew things so that it is hard to form a lasting relationship, because the main focus is on sex. Which is a very important part, but there has to be other things to make a relationship work. I've had sex with friends with the idea of friends with benefits. It always ruins a good friendship, because it takes things to another level that wasn't possible before the sex. It goes down hill from there. So what is a girl suppose to do...

Things that make me laugh!

I have a weird sense of humor that most wouldn't find as funny, but sends me ROTFLOL! First my boss told me at the beginning of my employment that he knows someone that has Jazz tickets and when he gets them they will be mine. At first I thought they were box seats which is cool, but it still is too far away from the floor. NO, these tickets are right behind the Jazz players! I'm in heaven and I can't wait to actually get them. Second I took my momma to Boulevard Furniture so that she could enter the drawings. It is almost like when I took her to a neighborhood fire that happen a month ago. St. George needs some serious entertainment. Everyone was there to both occasions! As we are standing in line a complete stranger starts talking to me and my momma was rolling her eyes at me. I can't help it. I must have a friendly face, because everywhere I go I end up chatting with someone. I didn't get that trait from her, but my daddy is extremely friendly too. Then my BFF called me last night. I almost died from the laughter, because I couldn't breathe. She is so funny and clueless. I have to admit that I don't really like "girly games", but I am good at them and do it as effortlessly as breathing. She is attracting some guys lately and it starts out very innocently. She is shy, but very sweet and nice. They start talking to her and because she doesn't clue in that they are interested in her romantically (she doesn't ever think a guy would be interested in her) she is friendly back. Not flirty friendly, because she isn't really capable, just sweet and friendly. So eventually by the time that she clues into the fact they are interested she is mortified. I always ask her first if there is a possiblity of interest in her part and so far there isn't even a teeny bit. So I listen and give her advice to gently let them down, but in the meantime I have to just laugh at her reactions to the situations. I admit that I feel sorry for guys on this point. It takes a lot of courage and fortitude to approach us. I will try to gently get my point accross that I'm not interested, but after awhile they do get on my nerves. That is when the bitchy person comes out and they are sent to the curb. BFF doesn't have it in her to be anything, but tortured by the situations. She blames herself and she thinks she has led them on. Of course I had to laugh uncontrollably first than I told her to forget about it. We all lead men on. It is our role in life per say, but to feel guilty about it is like feeling guilty that you are breathing.

My Rant Fest!

One of my good friends have been telling me that I'm a man hater! So it got me thinking... The circumstances that brought it about is unusual. As a friend I will always try to be on your side and listen to your feelings. I don't like it when a man uses and abuses my friend. He is lazy, selfish, and a complete scum of the earth. I just can't do somersaults when he calls her during the day. It doesn't seem to warrant a pat on the back. One of her other friends told her that she took it as he is trying!!! By calling her without her calling him!!! When she has told him a million times that she wants him to call her and they have been together 3 years. I understand I'm exagerating the times she has asked him, because she doesn't like to "bug" him (she hates to nag). I guess I'm a nagger. Asshole used to call me 20 times a day when we were together. I realize that he loved me as much as he was capable of, but it still wasn't enough. Calling isn't a sign of love. He used to talk to me about everything and I was the first person he turned to in good and bad times. He still did it the beginning of this year and we haven't been together for 3 years. That doesn't change the fact that he wasn't enough. The fact that her weasel totally disregarded her well being by going off hunting instead of making a room livable for her. The fact he still couldn't do it this weekend, because he is depressed. I know depression. You might not want to do anything, but essential things still have to do be done. Maybe not the things that you usually want to do that is a "fun" activity. You don't just blow off work and go do pointless things, because of depression. He just uses it as a sheild and he is now using suicide to manipulate her. I've been suicidal recently. We think about it, but we don't actually share that with other people. When you are suicidal you are in a black void and you just do it if you are going to do it. I realize that I haven't had a lot of tolerance for men on the whole. I'm not willing to be a doormat and I'm not willing to "SETTLE" not anymore. I realize that I'm not perfect and I have lots of issues. I'm human. I do know that I'm a bright, loving, and attractive individual that have lots to give and deserves to receive more than crumbs. A phone call is nice, but it shouldn't make her overlook all of his faults. He is a waste of the oxygen he is breathing. He takes her money and sucks her dry of everything even her pride. One of these days he is going to suck her of everything and he won't be there. I will as her friend, but I just can't get excited when he calls her...

As old as you feel...

I feel OLD! This weekend I had a sexy bunny costume to wear and I didn't even put it on. It just seemed like too much of an effort. I just wanted to curl up to my pillows, read a good book, and go to bed. I need to get a life or maybe not. I kind of like not feeling anything. Instead of the rollercoster that is normally my life... I'm just numb and mellow.